Awareness

As a mom, I now have a new level of respect for the human ears. It is incredible how after only hearing your brand new baby cry for a few days your body can be so in tune to that particular frequency. No one else may be able to hear that your child is crying down the hall and 5 rooms away, but you can! I also remember back in high school, or college really how it was amazing how if anyone within a 1 mile radius mentioned the name of the boy that I was interested in at the time I was suddenly Superman and could hear every word! On the not so fun side, it is also amazing how when I am frustrated by something or someone, I supernaturally am able to catch any hint of someone else's frustration with the same thing, so that I can fuel my fire.

This ability to tune into certain things can often be a blessing, but I find it to be very revealing: I am tuned in to the things that are important to me, those things that are the closest to my heart. Sadly the Lord revealed this to me this morning, as I was praying for a deeper awareness of Him. He showed me that the fact that I am not as aware of Him, and his whisperings to me, shows that He is not as important to me as I wish He were. If He truly ranked at the top of my list, I would be constantly straining to hear His voice, just like I strain to hear whether or not my son has fallen off the slide in the back yard.

Lord, help me to tune my ear into You. I want You to be the closest thing to my heart, and the most important person in my life! Help me to be constantly aware of your voice, your movement, and your heart. I love you, with all of my broken peices that you are constantly mending inside me. I praise you for the joy that you are constantly returning to me as I lean my ear closer and closer to you. You are so good!

~Laura